Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Asking "What's next?"

Let's be honest. Have you ever asked God "What's next?" I have and currently I am!

Last February I lost my job at a counseling center where I was working for about two years. I figured I would finish my book (I have said this before) and then find another job. The only question was "what kind job should I look for?"

One of the possibilities I was considering was some small catering jobs. After this past weekend, I think that is not one of the things I am able to do without a great amount of physical pain! I catered a friend's son's graduation party. I told her way back in early March that I would do it, and I really wanted to. It was this past weekend. All went well with the party, the food was fine...I was not.

It was a privilege to be able to do this. But I now know that this isn't the direction I will be pursuing. I have more pain in more areas that I realized I could have pain. OUCH!

So, for now I am asking God "what's next?"

There are some changes that Jeff and I are making about our business, our church, our ministry. We are trying to be obedient, and wise. Although I must say that it is also a difficult decision to do what you feel God is telling you to do, versus what we want to do.

So I have spent a great deal of time praying, reading, soul searching and what-ever else I can think of to do. I have not come up with a lot of choices. Last night I turned in my resignation to lead GriefShare. It was done with a lot of emotional pain. I love doing it, but need a break. I have been leading it for over five years with very little breaks in between. I am tired.

I whole heartedly believe in this program! I am hoping to be able to do grief support again in the future. But, for now, after July 25 I am on furlough.

I would greatly appreciate any words of wisdom you may have, and as always I covet your prayers as we wait on God to show us what His plan is for us!

Thank you for allowing me to serve you in the capacity of your GriefShare facilitator!

1 comment:

Emily Jones said...

I love you.